Blood sister
Well hello! (wave awkwardly) 👋🏼
So basically this is my VERY first time blogging? Like yeah, I never (like ever) expected that I will click the sign up button at the first place just to share about my thoughts, feelings, stories, news and its TOTALLY ABOUT MYSELF 🙃 So welcome again.
On the first topic that I would throw it out is about "blood sister"
So apa tu blood sister is all about? Kenapa dalam banyak benda nak cerita, tapi pasal sister juga nak cakap? Because theres nowhere to talk to. Betul lah, since I pun macam loner which means got no besties anymore. Like ada tu ada lah tapi macam biskut je. Kejap ada kejap tak, not really besties lah actually. Cus we dont care abt each other really. So kawan ada lah kan tapi I suka pendam sorang. So this is actually the reason why I signing up benda ni. I write it down, I luah, I baca, I lega. I happy 😊
I terasa. Terasa sangat. Dulu, I boleh ignore. Tapi I pelik why on earth I kena hadapi this kind of situation. I wonder why me? Minta tolong dengan adik beradik sendiri pun susah. Pelik? Ya kinda.
Orang lain kalau adik beradik minta tolong, seboleh boleh nak bantu sebab taknak susahkan mereka. Kita bantu sebab kita care, kita sayang, kita nak mudahkan urusan. Tapi why. Why. Why its hard to find in my sibling's mind. Tiap kali minta tolong, benda utama yang I akan dapat is, SAKIT HATI 🙃
Sebolehnya nak kita susah sendiri tanpa bantuan mereka. Seboleh boleh nak kita berdikari (kot?) tanpa pertolongan mereka. I minta tolong sbb I betul nak pertolongan. Bukan sengaja cakap nak tu nak ini. Kalau melibatkan duit, I bayar exact amount yg I minta tolong in that time terus bayar. Just minta tolong transfer sebab amount yg diminta ada nombor ganjil pun masih dipertikaikan kenapa nak minta bantuan dari dia. I sedih. Sedih sangat. Its okay. I kuat. I anggap tu cabaran utk I berdikari sendiri because someday I akan berjaya without anyone's help pun. InsyaAllah amin! (Doakan I pls)
Boyfriend I baik. He's the reason why I jadi positif macam sekarang. Dia ajar i banyak benda. Kalau orang susah, kita tolong. Its okay kalau orang tu tak balas tapi kita dah tolong dia. Especially adik beradik. Jangan pernah tolak bila mereka minta tolong. They are priority. Tapi ada ke mereka anggap saya ni keutamaan mereka? I dont think so 🙂 Because I am not!
Jangan cakap pertama kali, banyak kali dah. Asyik mengalah. Sikit-sikit okay lagi. Lama-lama jadi apa? Makan hati je lah tak sudah. Macam harini. Rm27.50 saja yg minta transfer ke kawan kerana duit tu ganjil, I nak bayar wifi hostel. Tapi I akan kasi cash kat kakak I. Dia persoalkan I. I memang totally terasa & cakap "takpe kalau taknak tolong, terima kasih"
Tu je mampu nak cakap. Sebab dalam hati ni, sedih ya amat sekali. I bukan sesapa, I adik dia. Instead of menyoal macam minta transfer beribu riban, hulur bantuan yg tak sampai 5 minit kan boleh bagi I senyum. Bagi I happy. Tapi apakan daya, buat I happy tu meaningless. Its better to see adik beradik kecewa nangis daripada syukur happy tolong menolong 🙂 its okay kak. I can do that by my own. You re helping me A LOT. Appreciates ur word!
I dah penat nak taip panjang-panjang. I cuma rasa lega sebab dah lepaskan apa yang patut. Terima kasih blogger sebab create website yang kasi kami tulis blog panjang lebar macamni tanpa perlu judge sikit pun. Thanks for that.
Anyway, im done with today's entry. Semoga semuanya baik je. Doakan I semua 😘
With love,
adellisnotmyname ❤️
So basically this is my VERY first time blogging? Like yeah, I never (like ever) expected that I will click the sign up button at the first place just to share about my thoughts, feelings, stories, news and its TOTALLY ABOUT MYSELF 🙃 So welcome again.
On the first topic that I would throw it out is about "blood sister"
So apa tu blood sister is all about? Kenapa dalam banyak benda nak cerita, tapi pasal sister juga nak cakap? Because theres nowhere to talk to. Betul lah, since I pun macam loner which means got no besties anymore. Like ada tu ada lah tapi macam biskut je. Kejap ada kejap tak, not really besties lah actually. Cus we dont care abt each other really. So kawan ada lah kan tapi I suka pendam sorang. So this is actually the reason why I signing up benda ni. I write it down, I luah, I baca, I lega. I happy 😊
I terasa. Terasa sangat. Dulu, I boleh ignore. Tapi I pelik why on earth I kena hadapi this kind of situation. I wonder why me? Minta tolong dengan adik beradik sendiri pun susah. Pelik? Ya kinda.
Orang lain kalau adik beradik minta tolong, seboleh boleh nak bantu sebab taknak susahkan mereka. Kita bantu sebab kita care, kita sayang, kita nak mudahkan urusan. Tapi why. Why. Why its hard to find in my sibling's mind. Tiap kali minta tolong, benda utama yang I akan dapat is, SAKIT HATI 🙃
Sebolehnya nak kita susah sendiri tanpa bantuan mereka. Seboleh boleh nak kita berdikari (kot?) tanpa pertolongan mereka. I minta tolong sbb I betul nak pertolongan. Bukan sengaja cakap nak tu nak ini. Kalau melibatkan duit, I bayar exact amount yg I minta tolong in that time terus bayar. Just minta tolong transfer sebab amount yg diminta ada nombor ganjil pun masih dipertikaikan kenapa nak minta bantuan dari dia. I sedih. Sedih sangat. Its okay. I kuat. I anggap tu cabaran utk I berdikari sendiri because someday I akan berjaya without anyone's help pun. InsyaAllah amin! (Doakan I pls)
Boyfriend I baik. He's the reason why I jadi positif macam sekarang. Dia ajar i banyak benda. Kalau orang susah, kita tolong. Its okay kalau orang tu tak balas tapi kita dah tolong dia. Especially adik beradik. Jangan pernah tolak bila mereka minta tolong. They are priority. Tapi ada ke mereka anggap saya ni keutamaan mereka? I dont think so 🙂 Because I am not!
Jangan cakap pertama kali, banyak kali dah. Asyik mengalah. Sikit-sikit okay lagi. Lama-lama jadi apa? Makan hati je lah tak sudah. Macam harini. Rm27.50 saja yg minta transfer ke kawan kerana duit tu ganjil, I nak bayar wifi hostel. Tapi I akan kasi cash kat kakak I. Dia persoalkan I. I memang totally terasa & cakap "takpe kalau taknak tolong, terima kasih"
Tu je mampu nak cakap. Sebab dalam hati ni, sedih ya amat sekali. I bukan sesapa, I adik dia. Instead of menyoal macam minta transfer beribu riban, hulur bantuan yg tak sampai 5 minit kan boleh bagi I senyum. Bagi I happy. Tapi apakan daya, buat I happy tu meaningless. Its better to see adik beradik kecewa nangis daripada syukur happy tolong menolong 🙂 its okay kak. I can do that by my own. You re helping me A LOT. Appreciates ur word!
I dah penat nak taip panjang-panjang. I cuma rasa lega sebab dah lepaskan apa yang patut. Terima kasih blogger sebab create website yang kasi kami tulis blog panjang lebar macamni tanpa perlu judge sikit pun. Thanks for that.
Anyway, im done with today's entry. Semoga semuanya baik je. Doakan I semua 😘
With love,
adellisnotmyname ❤️
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