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Idk

Sometimes I wonder. Am I good enough for me? Am i make myself proud? Am i do the right thing? My 15yo of me back then never thought than I’ll end my life like this. This is out of my imagination. Always dreaming of having my own car, best career, successful & stable woman but everything is far to achieve. But i will someday. Idk when. Idk why. Idk. I hope that i make myself prouder. I hope that i make myself better. Sometimes i cry myself not because im weak but im strong enough to face everythg by my own. Im strong person. Im independent. Im bigger than what i always thought i am. I just need time. I just need space. I just need to calm down. Everything will be better. Everything will be okay. Huhh. I wish everyone is proud of me. So do i..
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Empty space

Its been a long time i didnt posted any update about my life. Boleh ke kalau tiap kali i rasa sedih, rasa marah, rasa geram,  i lepaskan kat sini? I nak berubah, jd better person to my family, friends & amirul. I love all of them. Tp i taknak ruin the relationship bcus of my attitude. Im so cannot handle my egoness, emotions. How? Hmmm. Sometimes i rasa mcm i dont deserves anyone. Sbb perangai i buruk. Semua org baik. I je jahat sakitkan hati org. Tp i pun tak suka perangai i percayalah. I regrets afterall. I shouldnt do that at the first place. I should treat them better. Way better. Tolong adilah, change your attitude. You re big enough to be relevant, matured & positive. Jauhkan lah sifat2 yg tak baik tu. Thats not u at all. Semoga Allah sentiasa lembutkan hati nur adilah izzati mohd shari dlm menyelesaikan semua masalah. Semoga adilah terus sabar & sabar dlm membuat keputusan. Amin yarabbal al amin
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How i wish

Hujan lebat. Basah kuyup. Habis lencun balik kerja. Sampai rumah terus mandi sebab fikir kang demam pula, esok nak kerja lagi. So tengah lepak2, scroll ig.... Wah ramainya pergi vacation, yelah cuti sekolah kan. Seronok je scroll satu-satu gambar. All of sudden.. Terasa sedih. Nak nangis. Sebab idk how i wish, aku kat tempat dorang. Travel around the world, Jenjalan sana sini, merasa negara org. Aku tak pernah travel, berjalan jauh seumur hidup aku. Cuti sekolah balik kampung or lepak kat rumah as usual. Aku teringin nak merasa merantau ke tempat org. If only travel tu sesenang aku pergi shah alam, I would love to do everyday. Tapi tak... Not that easy, not that cheap. Semua guna duit. Bila aku tengok org jenis travel sana sini, i wonder how dorang manage duit semua utk travel. Minta parents ke, kerja ke, saving ke, idk im curious. Sbb aku pun nak buat saving if tu lah cara dorang buat. Seronok je tengok life org. Life aku sendu je. Boring. Nothing. Meaningless. Takda apa yg menar...
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Blood sister

Well hello! (wave awkwardly) 👋🏼 So basically this is my VERY first time blogging? Like yeah, I never (like ever) expected that I will click the sign up button at the first place just to share about my thoughts, feelings, stories, news and its TOTALLY ABOUT MYSELF 🙃 So welcome again. On the first topic that I would throw it out is about "blood sister" So apa tu blood sister is all about? Kenapa dalam banyak benda nak cerita, tapi pasal sister juga nak cakap? Because theres nowhere to talk to. Betul lah, since I pun macam loner which means got no besties anymore. Like ada tu ada lah tapi macam biskut je. Kejap ada kejap tak, not really besties lah actually. Cus we dont care abt each other really. So kawan ada lah kan tapi I suka pendam sorang. So this is actually the reason why I signing up benda ni. I write it down, I luah, I baca, I lega. I happy 😊 I terasa. Terasa sangat. Dulu, I boleh ignore. Tapi I pelik why on earth I kena hadapi this kind of situation. I wond...
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